Ariana Grande Suffering From Anxiety After Breaking Off Engagement To Pete Davidson

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Anxiety can suck her "big green d---".

One of the most transparent celebrities with mental illness, Ariana Grande has been open about her battle with anxiety for quite some time. The singer has finally broken her silence over her recent breakup.

Unless you've been living under a rock, you've probably heard about Ariana Grande's broken engagement with comedian Pete Davidson. Though the 25-year-old singer is keeping herself busy with work (she's performing on Wicked's 15th-anniversary festival), she — quite understandably — seems to be having a hard time. Reports say that she missed the final dress rehearsal for the Wicked special, but she uploaded this selfie onto her Instagram stories on Tuesday.

“Can’t believe I almost let my anxiety ruin this for me today!” Ariana wrote in her caption. Her selfie shows her wearing green makeup for the Wicked special.

“Not today Satan!" she continued. "Not tomorrow or the next day either not no more u can suck my big green d— finna sing my heart out and be a big walking vessel of love bye."

Ariana Grande Suffering From Anxiety After Breaking Off Engagement To Pete Davidson

Ariana also posted a photo of herself with Idina Menzel, who originated the role of Wicked protagonist Elphaba.

 
 
 
 
 
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if y’all told me ab any of this fifteen years ago ........................... bye. ?

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Celebrities With Mental Illness: Ariana Grande's Battle With Anxiety

Plenty of celebrities with mental illness choose to deal with their struggles privately, but Ariana has been quite open about her experiences. In an earlier interview with Elle promoting her latest album Sweetener, Ariana revealed that she had been in therapy for more than a decade. She started going to therapy shortly after her parents split up.

“It’s work,” she said. “I’m a 25-year-old woman. But I’ve also spent the past handful of years growing up under very extraordinary circumstances."

The 2017 Manchester bombing

After the Manchester bombing, she suffered from PTSD and anxiety.

“When I got home from tour, I had really wild dizzy spells, this feeling like I couldn’t breathe,” she said. “I would be in a good mood, fine and happy, and they would hit me out of nowhere. I’ve always had anxiety, but it had never been physical before. There were a couple of months straight where I felt so upside down.”

Because many celebrities with mental illness don't process their issues, Ariana was fortunate to have people around her who urged her to acknowledge her pain and move on from it. After sharing the experience with Pharrell Williams, they created "Get Well Soon", the final track on Sweetener. Here is the song's first verse:

They say my system is overloaded
(Girl, what’s wrong with you? Come back down)
I'm too much in my head, did you notice?
(Girl, what’s wrong with you? Come back down)
My body's here on Earth, but I'm floating
(Girl, what’s wrong with you? Come back down)
Disconnected, so sometimes, I feel frozen and alone

Mac Miller's death 

Ariana broke off a five-year relationship in late April with rapper-producer Mac Miller, largely due to his substance abuse issues. Soon after the breakup, Ariana got together with Pete Davidson, and to the shock of the world, they got engaged shortly after.

In an interview with Paper magazine, she said, "I'm the happiest I've ever been." Ariana even named a song on Sweetener after the SNL cast member.

But that happiness was short-lived. When Mac Miller passed away due to an overdose, Ariana was devastated. It didn't help that many fans blamed Ariana for Mac's death.

“Ariana is taking Mac’s death really rough, and her mother has been staying with her right now,” a source told Radar Online. “She’s in therapy.”

Breaking up with Pete Davidson

Nobody was surprised when Ariana and Pete called it quits. “It was way too much too soon,” an insider told People. “It’s not shocking to anyone.”

The pair was also under a lot of scrutiny from the media and fans, and both were subject to a lot of online abuse. After Mac's death, this abuse only intensified.

“They put on this front of being so happy but there were lots of fights and struggles behind the scenes,” another insider told People. “They’ve gotten into arguments and broken up before and got back together."

But just because everyone saw it coming doesn't make the breakup easier. Ariana has had a rough year, and we hope she's taking care of herself.